My thought

Well... I had been back in Utah for almost month and still no job. ARGH! But I am much happier here than New York. Some of you know my situation back in New York so all I can say is that many people are thrilled that I am out of New York. So am I... It's interesting how I am back in my home state but my family are not here anymore. I live like 10 minutes away from the house that I spent 8 years of my life... A lot of good memories... Now, every time I drive by the house, it still feel like it's my home only that strangers from Arizona are living there...

The mountain here are red with red leaves... Love Autumn here in Utah! It's the most beautiful place you can be for Autumn. I went to Arizona recently and the sight of the mountains and desert was breathtaking. I have forgot what Arizona looks like and it's a beautiful sight.
I was mesmerized by the sight so my nose was glued to the plastic airplane window watching the view until the plane descended to the ugly airport that is known as Phoenix Sky Harbor.

Now, I am single and I have to take this time to sit down and look within myself to see what I need to work on. That can be challenging sometime because who like to find that there are things about the person that need to be worked on?

I am the type that like to give the person my full attention and take care of his needs. I need to learn that I need to focus and think about myself then others when the timing is right. Right now, I need to focus on myself and my family- some that I haven't seen in years like my sister in Texas. I finally met my niece, Kaley Rae for the first time and she is one year old! I kind of felt embarrassed about that but I was very glad to meet her. I finally saw my grandma from mother's side for first time in 2 or 3 years. It was wonderful to see her but at the same time was sad because she is getting old and fragile. The visit to grandpa and grandma Matheson actually depressed me because I couldn't recognize my own grandpa because of his skin condition. Also my grandma's mind is fading so she had to repeat herself. She used to have very sharp mind. The aging process really rob the one of its identifies sometime.

The question remain in my mind is will I end up living my life single? Who knows...