I am at Coffee Garden on 9th and 9th. That place is my favorite place to go even they have crappy internet connection. There is something about that place that makes me feel at home in the city. I have to admit that I do still miss "John." I have already forgave him for everything he has done to me over last few months. We still talk almost everyday and it makes me miss him because what we had was very good but we let the frustration of being poor and unemployed get to us.

Now, I am here in Utah and still unemployed- I miss talking to somebody who do really understand what I am talking about and feeling like John. I feels like only few people really understand what I am going through and how I really feel about everything.

But I will have to accept the cold facts and move on somehow. After meeting few people since I moved back, I think I prefer single-hood than relationship. It looks like I will have to get myself a dog to fill the spot that was left empty. But that will have to wait til I can provide the dog a good home and security which I hope that will happen soon!